My heart is a map. Where I have been. Where I am now. Where I am going.
It’s not a paper map, identical each time I unfold it to find my way. It is simple to know where I am on a paper map. The roads and pattern are always the same. I see my place clearly, and mark it with an X. I am Here.
My heart is the map of my life. Like all maps, I must know where I am right now in order to journey to where I want to be. To find my way on this map, I open my heart, and feel. Where am I now? Is it love, excitement, anger, sadness, joy, wonder, jealousy? So many emotional places, I cannot name them all. Ah, here I am. Mark it with my X. Homesick.
Is this where I want to be, in this place of homesick? No, not really. It doesn’t feel good, and I prefer ‘feel good’. Don’t we all.
I have learned that clearly feeling where I am gives me information. This place on the map of my heart, homesick, tells me I am longing for something, a something not fulfilled by where I am in my life at this moment.
This is what I do to find my way from homesick.