Two months ago, someone asked me a question which has stuck with me.
How do you want the world to see you?
Now, I know from my experience as an artist and writer, I have zip for control over how someone perceives and responds to me and my creations, and I would not want such control.
Still, the question keeps popping into my thoughts.
How do I want to be seen?
I want to be seen as my truest self. I want to be seen fully open-hearted, where love comes first in everything—what I feel and think, what I say and do, how I treat myself and how I treat the world. Love as my first consideration. Beginning there. Choosing love in my connections, communications, actions, and reactions.
I don’t always manage to begin from love. I get angry, tired, frustrated, impatient, sad, numb. My open heart feels it all. It needs to feel it all, that is its reason to be. But then, reminding myself to choose love brings me back to a place where I can change how I feel. It opens a space for me to shift the story I am telling myself, and make it different in this moment.
When I say to myself ‘choose love’, I am reminded I always have choice. I can react, or I can pause and come back to my heart, recall who I am, and choose to create from love.
I’d much rather create from love. Love allows me to be true to myself and what I want my life to be.
The question I began with, the question I was asked, isn’t the right question.
How do I want to see myself? How do I want to see the world? These are the questions.
I want to see myself, my life, and the world as a place that chooses love first. Chooses compassion, kindness, and care. Chooses connection, communication, gentleness, and patience.
A world that chooses to hold each other gently.
A me that chooses to hold myself gently.
This is how I want to see myself. This is how I want to see the world. This is how I want the world to see me.
All of us, choosing love first.