It is blazing sun outside my studio window today. The thermometer says -10 Celsius. Even with the brilliant sunlight, I do not go out without doing up my coat all the way to my chin, and adding hat and mittens and snow boots.
Contrast and preparation. Like the weather, that’s what is happening in my studio today.
Here is the contrast. I want to be playing with my book draft, but there are other needs today. What I call ‘administration’. I am frustrated. I want to be doing one thing, and need to be doing another. Ugh. Contrast.
And here is the preparation. I have to do the administration in order to smooth the path for my writing and drawing to get out into the world to be shared.
The preparation part of my creative life is the time and effort spent on meetings, questions and answers, contracts, proposals, emails and phone calls. I try to like this part but, honestly, today I don’t. Even though these things are a necessary part of the path, I’d rather be writing or drawing. Today the administration feels like it is in my way and it’s pissing me off.
I have tried to readjust my attitude. My adjustment dial appears to be momentarily stuck.
I know this would be easier if I wasn’t so growly today.
How do I solve this?
I write my morning pages, asking myself this question. I don’t get an answer. Rats. Now I’m writing my blog post, asking again, hoping for a solution and a settling of my pissed-off-ness. Nope, not yet.