I have a new word in my heart’s vocabulary. Grace.
New to me, yet this is an old word. I’ve heard people talk about the ‘grace of God’. There, but for the grace of God, go I. The song Amazing Grace tells of being taught by grace, and saved by grace.
In this world, I see grace being beauty, being tenderness and mercy, being forgiveness and reprieve and absolution. Grace as a gift, given unexpectedly and lovingly, that relieves, rescues, saves.
I think grace is connection, a gift in the same way love is a gift. Always here with me. Always available and speaking to me. Always holding me in its embrace. I need only open my heart, and become grounded and present.
Grace is another word for love, another word for Source, for God.
I see the grace given in my life. Love. Connection. Forgiveness. Beauty. Gratitude.
Grace is what writes with me, these words on this page. Whispers in my ear, write this, then this, and this. Grace opens my heart to my life, all of it. Opens my senses to what is around me in this moment. Says to me, use everything. All is inspiration, when I am open to grace and vulnerable to life.
Letting myself become vulnerable.
The dictionary defines vulnerable as being available to injury. In other words, I am being advised to stay closed off. Closed is safe. Vulnerable is being in danger.
Surely vulnerable can simply mean open.
When I am vulnerable to all in my life, I learn and understand. I feel and do what could be difficult and painful, but I hold it and myself in love. And then grace holds me, and I find my way through. Nothing to force or fight, nothing to push against in anger or fear, nothing to close away from.
I think the dictionary writers got it wrong. Vulnerable is not being available to injury. Vulnerable is being available to grace and love. It is standing deep in my life, open-hearted and accepting all I experience.
Available to my life. Using everything. An open heart. This is grace. Given, and accepted.
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Amazing Grace, song by John Newton (1725 – 1807)